FUCK

spoilers for dungeon meshi throughout this page, if you dont want to be spoiled dont scroll

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my partner got me into this series, they said something like

_{"i think you would really like this guy in it,
he loves monsters so much not just learning about them but wanting to be one,
hes kind of a pervert about them too"}

was sort of a say no more situation for me HA

the series being food centered was a fun surprise considering i went into it for laios' monster enthusiasm, i was always obsessed with characters who were otherkin/therian/ect feeling.

without rly realizing it, another nostalgic notion for me was food

my dad used to be a chef and is still very passionate about cooking, i dont have the best relationship with him, but like senshi he was able to make a dish off the top of his head and willing to feed and teach others.

he told me he was the only one who would sit with his mom in the kitchen and watch her cook, none of his kids ever had the same passion except the last year when we all still lived in the same state. i would ask him to make random dishes he'd never made before but through his own knowledge and online recipes we were able to make various ones. that meant a lot to me

a little before i got into dunmesh i found out i had ARFID

throughout my life i had trouble with limited eating, being anxious about not eating enough or not fast enough or Too much, i would gag or get nauseous with food being in my mouth, even smelling it nearby

i got very sick after a dependency on weed and caffiene to curb hunger
_{(if i can avoid the thing that makes me anxious...!!!!)}

i was vomitting every time i ate something or just randomly for a few days after stopping cold turkey not realizing what was going on, then being too scared to eat solids for a couple of weeks after

the tie in being that after i figured out i was dealing with emotional overcontrol pertaining to food anxiety,

indulging in a very 'yay food' media that centered around being healthy for your friends sake if not your own, i was able to start feeling less scared over food and being able to think of it more positively

TBC