spoilers throughout this page
my partner got me into this series, they said something like
"i think you would really like this guy in it,
he loves monsters so much
not just learning about them but wanting to be one,
hes kind of a pervert about them too"
was sort of a say no more situation for me HA
the series being food centered was a fun surprise considering i went into it for laios' monster enthusiasm, i was always obsessed with characters who were otherkin/therian/ect feeling.
without rly realizing it, another nostalgic notion for me was food
my dad used to be a chef and is still very passionate about cooking, i dont have the best relationship with him, but like senshi he was able to make a dish off the top of his head and willing to feed and teach others.
he told me he was the only one who would sit with his mom in the kitchen and watch her cook, none of his kids ever had the same passion except the last year when we all still lived in the same state. i would ask him to make random dishes he'd never made before but through his own knowledge and online recipes we were able to make various ones. that meant a lot to me
a little before i got into dunmesh i found out i had ARFID
throughout my life i had trouble with limited eating, being anxious about not eating enough or not fast enough or Too much, i would gag or get nauseous with food being in my mouth, even smelling it nearby
i got very sick after a dependency on weed and caffiene to curb hunger
(if i can avoid the thing that makes me anxious...!!!!) i was vomitting every time i ate something or just randomly for a few days after stopping cold turkey not realizing what was going on, then being too scared to eat solids for a couple of weeks after
the tie in being that after i figured out i was dealing with emotional overcontrol pertaining to food anxiety,
indulging in a very 'yay food' media that centered around being healthy for your friends sake if not your own, i was able to start feeling less scared over food and being able to think of it more positively
another swaddling plot point for me was coming to terms with death and people you love dying, i had various members of my family pass within a couple of years of eachother and i thought the group sharing memories of falin and the reader learning about her through them (even though shes ok at the end) was very cathartic for me
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marcilles long lifespan vs her friends and her fear of death was similarly very touching
and it all goes back to rethinking your lifestyle rhythms to extend your life to be with your loved ones as long as you can
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pictured below is a drawing laios made as a kid
IS THAT A FURSONA!???!!!!
having time to think about this character he created again
then he had a dream about it...
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the wolf's black throat marking - the still visible pencil mark even after being erased in laios' reference sheet getting interepted as a conscious marking choice that couldnt be forgotten...
laios mustve redrawn the pic he originally made as a child and after encountering the scylla and sexy marcille wolf hydra, added the wolf head additionally.
you can also see he added different parts and didnt bother to erase the lines to the original design (second horn on the middle head, turning the eagle into a hawk.)
and where he erased whole body parts to redraw them (birds head, bird leg, rhino heads neck is thicker now.
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my dunmesh fursona
Tempursofft Ferragamos
Tempursofft and Laios bonded over drawing, and now bond over a lot of other things too...!
i tend to fantasize over the thought of 'having fursonas together', 'feeling like an othered animal', 'we understand eachother'
